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Oof, this bit hit hard today: "Our distance from place has soul ramifications. As the natural world dies around us, living places become incapable of remembering us to our belonging within them. They die, just like we do. They forget, just like we do. They grow feeble and senile." Yes. Soul ramifications certainly. This comparison to aging is an intense metaphor; I'm sitting with it. In my own time sitting with and drowning/dreaming/drinking in river places, especially, I've come to understand the ways we've modified them (ditched diked drowned under reservoirs channelized poisoned turned into batteries) as an ANESTHETIZING. Water is life, and waterways should be fizzing popping many-voiced tangles of lives. When we simplify them, we simplify (anesthetize) ourselves in relation to them. My time with them, and with my garden, has made abundantly clear that the good work of giving my life energy back to my home lands and waters--as the ritual you've suggested would do, as many people are trying to do--wakes these places up, which in turn wakes me up, and then we can belong together, for a while (we have to do it over and over and over and over again, and there's plenty of beauty in that).

I do sometimes think, though, about the apparent inadequacy, just in terms of the basic thermodynamics, of giving my (rather feeble) life energy back, when the force that modified these systems, at least in this last century, was the force of a monstrous concentrated shot of fossil fuels--millions of years of life energy distilled to channelize those rivers and take apart those mountains. What's my little contribution of life energy (plus the life energies of the waking up place, to be sure) vs. the millions of years of fossil energy that went into modifying these systems. Some days, not every day, that feels like an impossible calculus. Most days, I'm like, well, but what else am I going to do but stake a claim and do the work? There's no worthier work!

Thanks for this beautiful essay and the invitations in it, Samantha; I'm looking forward to reading your book.

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